Tuesday, February 17, 2015.. You are a wonderful girl...

I'm putting that heading in for the record - wow, take it while I can, the advice of my friend Celia. Actually, Mac has kind of reverted back to his days of wondering how he can pay for everything. The only problem is now he really cannot read, so trying to show his bank statement is useless. I had to tell him about fifteen times how it is that we can pay for everything. Where the bank is, where he worked, how he had a pension etc etc. Added to that I also had to repeat what day it is over and over. Finally I kind of lost it, and said, "you will just have to trust me, I'm telling you the truth. You were able to have a pension, you had a good job at CN and now everything is taken care of - plus Les your son is your financial advisor; he has helped us to manage our $$$ so there you have it.

Believe me I didn't say all that in a nice tone of voice, so it was so sad to hear him say.."Gee I really don't have all my beans"... I think he was trying to say "I don't have all my marbles". :I'm really a nutty guy"...I melted completely, and felt so awful for losing my patience...told him how lucky we were that he was so good at his work and that he did well in his day etc etc. Then he said, "I am so sorry, you are a wonderful girl"...well he is a wonderful guy, and a sweet husband, and I must remember that.

Actually I wanted to make sure I put in the blog that he had a blood test, and will have some more tests, and must find out why...I guess it's just for his medical record. He is eating well, and walking fairly well - still has his moments of anger, thankfully, not as often as in the past...and as one can see I'm still having my moments of impatience..so better change that attitude. Tonight the residents on the 2nd floor were really "off the wall " so to speak, and I'm wondering if it's a full moon, thankfully, it did not effect Mac to hear the screaming, crying, and the yelling for mama mama...I wonder how the lady who used to be o.k. on this floor was finding it tonight with that noise, amazingly many of the residents just ignore the behavior of the others, which is unreal, as it certainly effects me when I'm there.

Anyway, I will remember my compliments, and coming after Valentine's day, it's going to be my valentine for this year...g'nite.