These past few weeks because of the weather and my knee being out of commission we haven't been going out for walks, just making short little walks to the store from the car, even walking in the mall is a problem, consequently Mac is sleeping much of the day away, and with the sleeping comes dreaming. Last evening when I woke him up for dinner, he came to the kitchen saying, 'i just won't do it" and from about 6:10 to about 7;00 p.m. i tried to get him to eat his dinner, but according to him it would be hurting someone, and he just could not do it. He said no it wouldn't be fair, and to be fair he could not eat his dinner.
As he sits or kind of lays on his super chair, he listens to the radio, and perhaps in his sleep he was listening to the news of the Native woman who is on a hunger strike, and the support she is getting, or whatever, but for sure the news had infiltrated his brain and to eat dinner was something he just could not do as he had to support someone whom he couldn't name. When I told him the story this morning he couldn't believe he did that, and today we were happily eating our breakfast, as well as a hearty lunch. So happy about that as we had our grandson, Jacob with us at lunch time and it was lovely that there was not a problem at all, just the usual problem of trying to get Mac to participate in our talk...but as he said later, he enjoys listening.
This dreaming business is part of the nightly problem as he yells, grunts squeals, turns and tosses all while he sleeps, so it is with a sigh of relief to say last night and today were both red letter days, no problems whatsoever...the only tiny problem to Mac, is that I don't have time to sit on his knee and cuddle - as i'm making Christmas plum puddings..wrapping gifts and writing cards.. he can't believe what i'm doing all this for, several times a day I have to tell him, Christmas is coming. We even do the christmas calendar business, where he has a chocolate each day as i have him pick out whatever date it is..hey think I'll get myself a calendar next year.
So on the whole his memory is certainly fading, but as he looks out the window he thinks he is in St. Henri, and so of course he loves to remenice and even though I tell him it's Chateauguay out there, he will still say guess there are no more McConnells, i wonder, he'll say if there are any mcconnells left here, i'd love to visit with them. Some days it hits harder than others' that he doesn't have his mom, brother or sisters. When we look at the pictures of his family, it helps, and he delights in trying to go through a whose who of his family..going back to his grandparents.
Another positive thing, the CLSC is helping so it looks like we'll have a few more hours of respite in the new year, and some more support for his bathing, walking sitting and standing, So living one day at a time, and not worrying about our various options i.e. placing mac, getting more help, etc...is easy to do on a day like today..here's to more days like this. so on that note, i'll say g'nite.
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