"Where are we going"...that's the question Mac asks every day, we could be going to the bathroom, out for lunch or just to bed...especially to bed as at that time, he is usually a bit disoriented and not sure where we are, but as i've mentioned before he has improved in many ways, or should i say, learned to just accept things as they are', the following paragraphs were in answer to an email to a friend which tells it like it is...
we've been here one year this month...and now we feel like (or i feel like) I'm home, so it will be that way with you too, eventually.
Yes it's sad to see the decline in our mates, but every day I'm thankful he's still here and I'm so happy he is able to walk, although really slowly..it's still wonderful in so many ways as he enjoys everything, the sun, the sky, the lake,going out for tea, or brunch... comments on this and appreciates ...I remember how he was such a person to stay in,in daytime... unless we were going skiing ..always had so much to do on-line and for various things, i.e. historical society...helping others with income tax...etc...etc.(for sure i'd rather he was like that still ), but since it can't be; we .now enjoy each day in slow motion, but each moment is precious..since, I'm not sure how long it will be when he won't be able to walk, I try not to think of that...as that is our most important occupation each day, 2nd to that is listening to cds and music...Remember how we used to do both these things i.e. walk and listen to records when we were teens..well hey we're back there ...ha.
my person for mac will be here. this week, .Debbie - the clsc has raised her time for me to 6 hours a week, 2 days 3 hrs each...but we'll see how that goes. my nights are not always as good as mac is a restless sleeper and sometimes up and around and can get very agitated... although yesterday a.m. was his agitated time, wouldn't eat brekkie,and would not cooperate for getting dressed, took about 2 hours to get him back to norm....cajoling and speaking softly and loving, which is sometimes maddening, but it works."
Trying to explain to the nurse that i want to see the doctor, became a lesson in patience, as she screens all requests, and decides - as i tried to tell her - i don't want sleeping pills, but something to make him stable at night so he won't be agitated in his sleep. She did get to the doc who came to see Mac when I was out.(darn) Debbie said he just asked mac how he was and has provided me with a prescription which should help apparently..i'm always afraid of pills and the side effects, so depending on just how he sleeps in the next few weeks i'll see. I will have to be desperate...to use them as i feel he has enough meds...
Anyway, that's the questiion still today "Where are we going, " and we are going, for our usual walk, and since it's a nice day we'll go to the lake, go to "the teapot' for lunch...continue our walk, till it's time to return home to see Glenna, our daughter who will be here for dinner tonight. We're so fortunate that our children are still in Quebec and we see all of them on a regular basis..important to keep reminding Mac that we do have kids, although he never believes they are our children, but he can feel the love and that's what's important.
So where are we going..we're going out..bye now..
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