The usual day for us starts with trying to get Mac out of bed so the preposees cam get him dressed by approximately 8:45...but surprise Mac was wide awake at 6;40 this a.m. and wandering around wanting breakfast...Since I was still half asleep, I said, either come back to bed and wake up when we do (Mischa the cat and myself)which is 7;45, or just sit in your chair and doze...Well he decided to sit in his chair...don't know if he had a little more sleep, but by 7;15 he came in the bedroom and said...i'm hungry - have to have something to eat. So I drowsily said, 'see the white cookie jar, take an oatmeal cookie" i'll be up in a bit and give you your breakfast...well he roamed around, while i tried to wake up...then in about 5 minutes he was back and said, hey, i need more than that...i'm hungry...So no way out...we were up and eating breakfast at 7:30 a.m. a first for sure...
Maybe it was the sun shining in his face from the living room, or hunger, but it sure was an easy task for Vedette the preposee this a.m., usually she and I have to cajole and promise hot coffee quickly to rouse mac, but anyway, i'm not complaining, he is now up, dressed and happily listening to Beethoven ..and directing the orchestra with his head and feet...
The last blog was rather frivelous, and i received a few funny comments, but did receive a serious one asking how and when Mac showed symptons of the big A...and coincidentally when moving some old journals into a drawer a piece of paper fell out..it was written in 2008, i guess i wrote it for myself and probably to bring to the doctor...not sure as i seem to be writing and wondering at the same time.
here is what i wrote;-
l. mac seems unable to turn his head, i find this a problem, as he reliles only on the rear view mirror when backing out, keep saying, turn your head...he says, no way...
2. When i lie in bed i twist my feet right and left because of my former sprained ankle, asked mac if he can do it...surprise - he can't.
3. lately i find his writing unclear - that is for him...mine is always unclear.
4. In fact, he doesn't write on the line...hummm
5.his short term memory, is up and down, what's that about...
6. long term memory - no problem
7. his memory for faces AND names really poor
8. Reads less, and when reading something interesting out loud, is slow and not sure.
9. He does cross word puzzles constantly, still doing NY times one but needs all day now to complete with thesarus etc.
10. has problems using the phone, can't hear..and now has problems dialing ????what's that about.
I know I was attributing many of the problems to his deafness..and we went to he doc about it, and got hearing aids..which were expensive and useless as he wouldn't use them...in fact couldn't use them.
When going back over my blogs - first time i did that, last week, was realizing just how much he has lost in memory and how its effects on walking, talking, etc. has been over the last eight years...also of course his temperment...
Anyway, on reading the list above, underneath it all, I was trying to be realistic and at the same time, kind of denying that there was a problem...well now we know what the problem is, he was later in 2008 -9 diagnosed with Alzheimers...and what a shock to our lives that was, and although it's not a shock now, his always an up and down behaviours and health has changed our lives completely...
one of the funny things is, on the back of that piece of that paper...i have written, remember buy 4 gallons of stain and brushes for painter up n. Those were the days when he would make those decisions - i.e. time to paint the houses etc. i remember he was in conversations with the painter up N. and the handy man, making all kinds of decisions...well those days are gone forever, but he still knows when he is hungry, and needs more than a cookie...hurrah, so on with the day...
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