Wednesday, July 23, 2014 Why are we just sitting here then...

Last evening we were sitting with two friends in the back garden, discussing  all the problems in the world, then we got to all the ailments in our Residence that can't be cured, then I said  - just look at what we have right here...meaning, ,Mac's Alzheimer's, and Muriel's rhumatoid arthritis...both at this time incurable, when Mac who had sat quietly just listening to Muriel, her daughter Nancy and myself , all of sudden said very clearly...'Why are we just sitting here then!!..' We all looked at each other in surprise...'well, I said, "not too much we can do about it, so we might as well get up to bed'. Right said Mac, let's go.  Didn't pursue the convesation, but he certanly put things in perspective, talking about it doesn't make it go away, so we were all kind of hmm  yes..

But, in the Gazette Saturday June 14, there was an article about a "new drug raises hopes for the cure for A". and another says Montreal researcers have made Alzheimer's breakthrough which can delay the onset of the big A. by nearly 4 years.  These are just baby steps so far...but it is certainly a breakthrough.

In the meantime, it doesn't do too much for those, like Mac who are really in the thick of it so to speak. It always amazes the workers here and even some of my friends to see just how much Mac has lost  i.e  in memory.  Even the girl who came tonight and comes almost every night ' said, 'your wife is getting your pyjamas.. - and then looked so surprised when Mac said, 'she is not my wife...and where are my pyjamas, - then turned to me, saying.Do we go up to our house...'.he often forgets how to brush his teeth, or what a toothbrush is for, yesterday he cleaned his face with his t.shirt..which was still on him.

So on the side she said to me, were you shocked when Mac said that, well no,I answered,  he has said that often, maybe not to her.  Does it make you feel bad - she asked...

Well as i put the song on facebook, Every time we say goodbye - i cry a little...These are all little goodbyes, and of course to answer that question does it make me feel bad..'feeling bad, doesn't come near to describe what I feel, so I won't even go there..

Where will I go...to bed, and there he will be and I will be too...g'nite.