Thursday, January 22, 2015..Where are you going??

I almost had a fit when I helped Mac get into bed, he said "where are you going"? Then I remembered when he gets in bed he wants to know where I sleep, so I said what I usually say...which is "I'm not going anywhere yet, I'm just going to sit here beside you till you are sleeping, then I'm going to my bed upstairs." BUT, because, I'm actually going away tomorrow, I was almost in panic city, I did't want him to be worried and unable to sleep..so I have been just saying, the following words. Debbie will be visiting you tomorrow, Cecilia will probably be helping you to bed next week, and words of that nature. As I have both my caregivers coming one from 12:00 - 3:00 and the other from 5:00 to 8:00.

I'm all nervous about this as I know need a break but it's such a job to get it all together and have specific clothes ready, specific times and of course, let the staff know without letting Mac know as he will get agitated and start asking questions and then forgetting the answers and asking all over again. I know my friends Deb and Cecilia will be fine, they are with him often, and care for him so therefore, he will be good too. The only person who is walking around with a long face and a hairdo like Margaret Thatcher (the hairdresser has one type for all) is ME.

I'm typing this with a big lump in my throat and thinking why the hell am I leaving...forgetting all the nights that I go to bed exhausted thinking, lucky so and so is going to Mexico ..lucky this one going to Fla. so here I am Lucky me, acting like a jerk. He will be fine I know and therefore, I have to smarten up. Today, he was so on-target, eating, walking, talking, even going the toilet easily, and getting ready for bed, no problem...so I forget the other days and other nights, one good thing when I was coming upstairs after leaving him - met the morning nurse, she said - did he take his pill. I answered sure, easily, she said that's good as he has been spitting out his morning thyroid pill ...so he was not quite perfect...but nearly.

So my mood will switch too, and I know I will enjoy my holiday, but in the meantime, need to get to bed as will be leaving for the airport at 5;30, my friend Ginny will be here to get me, and tell me it's necessary, enjoy - force yourself. So there you have it...remember everyone needs a break and a change...ok time to look at my favourite show for the rest of he week...THE OCEAN...and come back to Mac and the BLOG, g'nite.