Rereading my blog from last night it looks like everything happened quickly .i.e. the loss of knowing who i was and then the regaining of his knowledge of myself etc...well it didn't actually happen that fast, in fact it was a soul searching and crying session, and wondering 'what the hell is happening to me' why am i not understanding, who you are...where are my kids, who are they when do we see them and on and on....the situation was in crisis and i was lucky to be able to connect with the doc, and get meds...which seem to have helped...today we went over yesterday's scenario, although it is mostly myself talking about this and mac saying...please keep saying tome " who am i'... then he would joke and say some funny name, but he realizes the seriousness of his disease and it's really hard to take...and last night it was so hard to see him in the state he was in and so we do have to face some facts...
Today on my day away had lunch with two wonderful friends, one of whom told me about friends of hers who have gone through this same kind of scene, and apparently the husband had many such attacks or episodes of this nature, and both were more and more effected, in fact the woman had a nervous breakdown, this also happened to two of the women in my Alzheimer support group...Well, on reading up on all this..it seems that having this day away is a good thing, well i can vouch for that it is a life saver, it puts things in perspective and even though some of the perspectives are terrribly sad, like the husband who had such attacks is now in a residence and seems to be o.k. though does'nt know his wife, she visits and is much more stable. Well much as i do not want to even think about THAT...it may and probably will happen,
Seems that someone out there is trying to tell me this as on our walk this evening we met another good old friend now in residence for seniors, she told us of another couple - whom mac doesn't remember but i do, he is in a residence for alzheimers - can't walk, in a wheelchair and needs to be fed...the only bright light in this is that he seems to be quite content, in fact although he doesn't know his wife he smiles when she comes and so on and so on, it got depressing...but i must take stock of things...realize it will happen, BUT, live one day at a time...
This day was terrific, this evening is great, and tonight we are jan and mac, happy as clams...g'nite.
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