Mac's answer to Abedel - preposee who often gets him ready for bed. Abdel was on duty this afternoon, and that's in answer to his usual "how are you", question this afternoon - last night he asked Mac the same question, and the answer was ..wait for it... "bugger off". He just hates the nightly routine as I've mentioned so often, but it really gets to me, and we'll be heading downstairs soon, will then be going through this awful yelling, swearing session, groan.
Right now we're both enjoying jazz cds. The doctor was here today and is on the same page as our whole family - and that is...Mac will have palliative care here (hurrah, no hospital). He said it will be stage 3 care, that is, he will be given meds for pain, or sickness if he gets sick, but will not be moved to the hospital. He said at this stage Mac would not benefit, and only be made much worse from the ordeal of ambulance, and people who do not know him. I am so thrilled, I love Doctor Ginsburg.
Our day is less eventful now, the big deal is when Mac eats something..anything. Today, his total intake one inch of milk shake, one spoonful of boost pudding, one cup of coffee and one quarter of a small cup of soup.
He wants so much to be independent and hates for me to have to help pull him out of a chair - hold him carefully when he has to walk etc... and so sometimes he tries to push me away when I try to help, and then he will smile, and say - "sorry", I so understand this, and feel for him. So I do try to back off, or say wait a minute, I need to have this next dance with you.. That he loves..
Today was zootherapy day on 2nd floor, a woman brought in two lovely dogs, who just enjoy being petted. one Max is a beautiful golden haired Lab retriever went right to mac and licked his hand. I was surprised by Mac's reaction, Mac, who always loved dogs, just said - "go away" and didn't pay any attention the lab or to the sweetest little dog who jumped on my lap. Yet as soon as we came into our apartment for supper, he stooped to pet our cat and fluff up Mischa's tail..there is just no constant in Mac's behavior any more. I wish that will be also the case for when he goes to bed tonite hope he surprises me by being cooperative, and make the whole procedure easy for all of us...we'll see..g'nite
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