Such a surprise to hear that question Do i take these to the bank??? This, as he took five 20's and one 10$ bill from his wallet...I replied - well no, you got them from the bank to spend - right??? 'oh that's what they are for - said Mac... Well what about these cards ...medicare, bank card, opus card..etc... Well that is so so hard to hear, Mac has always been such a financial wizard, knew evey cent, added everything in his head, and always even recently asked how much things were, even if he couldn't really understand, knew that $$$ were important...and a big bone of contention was that he never saw his bank statements - even when i showed them and wrote a note to show that i had done so - putting the note in his drawer so he'd see it the next month when the statement came....but now or lately - it doesn't mean a thing...although he still keeps his wallet in his pocket and likes to know just where it is at all times...he may change but it's another door closing....so many doors of his mind are shutting down...
So being here right now listening to michael Kaeshammer, playing boogie, and every few minutes i jump up and dance around him...and we both have a good laugh...is helping - helping me mainly....this is so necessary as i could cry and i'd rather laugh....So staying on course, enjoying our usual activities, like today's walk with Gaye, was great, and watching the para-sails or kites being manipulated by the super guys out on the lake, doing spectacular jumps and somersaults it was such a pleasure...gotta love summer - sun water and the breezes we surely do - this is our life, and at the same time our life-line...
I see the people on the second floor, who really come in being the same level as Mac, but then as they stay, here; they soon end up in wheelchairs, and sleep the day away...few visitors, and although they do get care its hurried and certainly not one-on-one...he certainly can't be on the third floor, which are the ones who are autonomous, they walk - talk, and enjoy, but are unable to go out...well mac is somewhere inbetween, but with me...he can do most everything, shop, talk, walk, and enjoy ...it pains me to think of these people watching us as we go out - they wish they could go too...but they know it's impossible and there is no one to take them ....Then there are the physically handicapped - with wheelchairs - canes etc...their minds are good but bodies are not...they feel the same way....
So all this to say, enjoy your health - and do your best to help those who are in poor health its' the best gift you can give them...your volunteer time - even for an hour....actually it will give you pleasure too. well there's the brat cat mischa...yelling at mac and i for food,....his nightly snack, also.mac wants me to feed the cat....
so ..g'nite.
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