Wednesday, November 13, 2013......I'm hiding.....

I've decided that the happiest time in Mac's day is bedtime...for although if the sun is shining getting out of bed is fairly okay, bedtime seems to be a safe and happy occasion. In fact, starting around 8:30 p.m. he is keen to brush his teeth, wash and by then he already has had the preposay who has got him in his p.j.s so he is kind of champing at the bit to hop in...i kind of try to keep him up, by encouraging him to play with the cat...watch the news, but these are only very peripheral distractions, to the main attraction, the BED...so by 9:45 he is getting tucked in, tonight as i was tucking him in, he was smiling and all of a sudden he pulled the blankets over his face...I said hey what's going on, he pulled the blanket down and with a big smile, said 'i'm hiding' ...well i just cracked up, he looked so happy and it was rather fun as we both laughed as i gave him his eye drops, which is almost the last thing that has to be done, the other two things are his pill and his patch..(meds for Alzheimers disease) then the very last thing is his kiss or should I say kisses goodnight...

These days i'm concerned about his going to bed too early as we have not been walking as much (freezing and damp) and therefore, his sleep is not as deep, and his being awake in a dream can be a real pain. last night he was looking for some items under the blankets,then had to get out of bed to look under the bed, finally he gave up, when I said, I think you will find them in the morning in broad daylight...well o.k. he replied, and thankfully fell off to sleep again.

I'm also concerned about how he sticks to me like glue, which is okay as I enjoy having him with me - and I know he feels relaxed knowing all is well, jan is there. BUT, I do need respite, and at this time I only have three to four hours a week without him...He comes to yoga with me on Tuesdays, and watches as I do yoga, or closes his eys and relaxes, he comes with me on Wednesdays to our study class at the church..also.with me shopping or Teapot activity...(senior's club) The social worker feels, i should really try pushing him to a Day Center for A. clients like himself, apparently they all protest but after a couple of weeks, they look forward to this activity...i have tried, but he really hates the idea and protests
loudly and vigoursly, i may try again...will check out which days they have.

It's amazing, every one thinks he is so wonderful and quiet..and he certanly is as long as he is with me .they don't realize how he can be loud and threatening when he is not able to be with me ...in fact when it has happened in the activity room, the people there thought he was fooling...little did they know...Last monday i took my 3 hour outing - had to rush out of the apartment, with him yelling and following me, and Debbie our caretaker, yelling bye jan have a good time...Once the door was closed, he knew he could not go out in the hall, even there he is lost...so he proceeded to sit and glare at poor Debbie, as she tried to interest him...in t.v., looking at pictures, finally she left him put food near him which he ate...but would hardly communicate...not a good situation.

Next Tuesday - is my next excursion, must must try to have it a more relaxing and pleasant experience for all concerned..but how..will give it some thought...but for now, must get some sleep myself, and i know who is going to be happy I'm there, and i'll be happy too..g'nite..