Monday started out in a kind of grim way, Mac was throwing up, mainly a kind of phlem...apparently this happens as many A. patients swallow their phlem...or something - which causes this...There was no temp. and his blood pressure and all else was normal according to the nurse who responded very quickly to our call. So, decided with weather so good we should seize the day, - so glad we did, it turned out to be a beautiful day, a walk along the lake - watching the Canada geese the swallows, and perhaps purple martins not sure, and sweet little babies, children wild flowers kite surfers, and all the wonderful activities that take place on the lake walk...ending with a sharing of a hot chocolate sundae...num....
Tuesday Mac and I had a lovely visit with his first and almost his last cousin mabel - spending the visit time in beautiful Westmount Park, all after first visiting the eye specialist...ending the afternoon meeting our daughter Glenna and then home to dinner. BUT, always there is the down side..which happened just before bedtime.; Mac looked at me saying 'Are you really my wife, I sure don't believe that...Well i said here is a picture of our wedding party many years ago, 61, almost....Showing him his brother the best man, the ushers Joey martel his brother in law, Chuck Holden, the bridesmaids, Ellen Holden, my sis, and Marjorie Finley, my good friend...and of course finally himself, which he could hardly recognize and strange but true, me, who he said was Janet...i said right, that's me Janet....I know theres a change, but he said, no you look like that - but you are definitely NOT Janet....So i ended that session with ' well let's go to sleep, wait for the morning, and see if I look like janet" He said, do you have another bed around here, I don't want you in my bed...well sorry, NO, but we don't have to touch each other..i'll stay way over on my side...so o.k. Now let's brush our teeth...While we were brushing our teeth...i said..Gee i feel sad that you don't know me tonight..? Then just like that he said, oh I know you, you are Janet and I'm sorry if I made you sad....
Well how does all that go around in his mind, i really don't know...but I was so happy to have him hug me, and hold my hand on the way to OUR bed...as one can see ....at times it's not so much for him that we are here but for me...as I should realize that his mind is always up and down, and should not be taken seriously, but then I say that but my mind does not take it in, and then i'm up and down too..and as the Alzheimer's Society nurse said, i have to get a life and realize going like that is to lead to depression for me...which is not good, so time to take a break..
His visitor from CLSC, will come this afternoon, so I'll take a break, a time off for myself and get back to norm where I can realize that Mac is sick, and not take seriously his down and unusual behaviours - which of course always seems to happen in the evening...so onward to a good day....
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