Dinner time, we have had a busy day, that is after I returned from having 3 hours of respite...today it was going for lunch with friends ...but I find that if Mac stays in all day, he is bored and does not sleep well. So freezing wind or not, we're up for going out for a short walk,so off we went to check out the shopping center next door, buy cat food and do some people watching..
Mac always finds it amazing how we, who bundle up, wear scarves, warm lined hats, and mitts etc...see kids walking with no hats, their coats wide open and seem to be oblivious to the wind and cold...so there he is saying look at that kid, he has to be nuts, so he is quite observant...but then at dinner time, we sit down to eat, and that's what he says....'Are we the only ones here??? " Well yes Mac, we are, sometimes we go downstairs and eat in the dining room with others but tonight, we're having dinner here in our apartment.."
It's sundown time, at this time of the day he forgets so much, he really doesn't realize it is an apartment...he doesn't know where the bathroom is, and then when he leaves the bathroom, he has to be shown where the bed room is, but he takes all this in good stride, even has a chuckle at himself...which really endears himself to me so much...and speaking of being an edearing person....
Today as I was looking for some files..i found an old looseleaf and flipping through it i found this - how strange..... I wrote it many years ago when i had a terrible fall, I broke my shoulder, arm and wrist all at one go... it is called .....the caregiver, ..and that was Mac...it was so strange to read that now that i'm the caregiver...
The Caregiver
He is the good left or right arm
The careful helpful soul
The shoulder I cry on
The news and town crier
The baker the charmer
The lover the mother
The roles that intertwine ..
The heart ever mine
then i go on and get even more soppy
To feel love, compassion and tenderness
the quiet response to my helplessness
To appreciate this man at my side who allows
my every wish to be his command
Well this surely was an eyeopener ...so how could i not be patient and kind...as mac was obviously so there for me... today when he said..."you know you are so kind."..I could answer "well you were and are kind too."
we're kind to each other...why not....be kind... g'nite..
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