A good day to stay in, but we managed a short walk from the parking lot behind the library to IGA and another couple of stores..the rain and the damp cold air giving us our usual conversation about should we go to Florida for the real cold days, that is MY usual comment, and Mac's usual answer, "no way, we'll just stay indoors." So even if we're not going, it's fun to consider it, talk about it, and give us conversation - as I go on to say how fun it is to walk on a beach, and then to see how Mac can find good reasons to walk in the snow. Actually once we get going we start remembering how great it is to see sun on snow, and so on...but as I notice how hard it is for Mac to walk these days - every day he seems to get slower and of course going up and down curbs, crossing streets, are all a challenge in bad weather...So think i'll start a routine going for some kind of exercise in the house...i've already noticed we're putting on a couple of pounds sitting around, and eating.
As the day progressed his mind as usual starts to fade and he starts to forget who is who...so as we were
getting ready to go to our daughter Valerie's for dinner, he said 'where is janet mcconnell'.. I put up my hand and said, here I am ...oh yes you are not that Janet...i'm thinking of my sister. i said Mac your sisters are no longer with us..my sister is no longer with us...we have our family now...I'm Janet your wife... we're going to visit Valerie your daughter and Brianna your grandaughter is coming with - and then he said of course she is coming with the BABY, well thankfully we have this BABY she is darling Finley, and then we're off and running about how cute she is...And so it goes, with the baby he is on target, and can talk about her - and we love to look at pictures of Finley...strangely though he doesn't recognize himself, or anyone else or has no interest ...unless it's of himself as a youngster...and of course FINLEY.
This could of course depress me when it comes to not being recognized, but I have other more affirming moments, as last night in the middle of the night, he tapped me on the shoulder when he came back from our trip to the bathroom, and said. "Jan it is you, eh?? " I replied, "right on, it's me..and he hugged and kissed me and said. "how wonderful..' so how wonderful is that, so g'nite.
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