That's what Mac said as he drank his breakfast coffee...remembering or thinking for me is so complicated. like i'm not sure if i dreamed or if i actually know that...I can see the street - Agnes where i used to live, and then we moved to laporte, now this was in St. henri' i said, no you were not dreaming, it's true you did live on Agnes and then laporte streets...Yes continued mac, i did ...I can see the park there...then I can see my friends on the street, they were all French..we got along very well, but one day a big kid came and he was French as well, and he was trying to be a big shot and bully me. I remember i punched him in the face, and he ran away; the kids on my street were happy that i did that. But now i'm wondering...did that happen??? Well i'm sure it did - i replied as I have heard that story several times in the past...
Oh you remember too, yes i went to school there - used to walk along Richilieu...but you know what, it all stops...what happened after that...where was I...it is so complicated..how come it all stops, i'm trying to remember ...oh my mother's picture is on the piano, right I guess i should try to find someone to help me remember or why i can't. Mac, i said, you have Alzheimer's disease, it does that, it makes you lose your memory, it's really too bad but we have to live in the NOW...
Do our kids know that i have that Alzheimer's...i said well i think now everyone we know and our family all know it.. It's not something to be ashamed of you know every 5th diagnosis now is for Alzheimers' and soon it will be more..it is a real epidemic...I'm happy you remembered we have kids...oh right i remembered that, that's good said mac...you are such a nice girl...
What, I said with mock severity...a nice girl...I'm your wife.!!!...oh that's good says mac...just think I continued ....in my wife harpy tone, if i was just some girl, what are you doing hugging me and kissing me, well said Mac, make sure not to tell my wife, ha...
The day was cold but we were warm with friends and a lovely walk on isle St. Bernard..and to top off the day we had our beautiful great grand baby, and grandaughter to finish with a flourish...so g'nite..
Hey Jan,
ReplyDeleteThe really neat thing about Mac is that although there are things he may not remember, and even some of your history together that he cannot find in his memory bank ...he always seems to know that he loves you ...and how cool is that? And what can be more important to remember than love?
hugs to you both ..