My blog got stalled again, i think the best thing is to check things out on Mondays as sometimes it works and sometimes it doesn't after two days of NON Blogging....
Blogging is a mystery and so is mac's memory....he said that today as we walked, he couldn't remember what and where we were. and said he was feeling lost. This was very sad, and as i mentioned in the lost blog...i tried to get him over this, by asking who i was ...he replied you are janet my wife. i said you know that right...you believe that and it's true. He said yes...do you know where we are. i said yes, I do, and I know where we are and where we live. With that he felt better - said ...."I trust you and that's good. ' As we walked along and looked at the Canada geese on the river...he said "it's o.k. now i feel better"...well hurrah for that.
He was very concerned about his memory, and said it is all a mystery, but i told him ...you have Alzheimers but we are going to just live in the moment. Do you think that's a good idea. Yes definitely said Mac...why not...? But even though we try it's amazing how often we talk about the recent past..thankfully he remembered the episode of going to his old home in St. henri, after seeing pics on computer that i showed him, of himself and the man in his old home...then all of a sudden he said..oh yes I remember now.. wow.....
He also remembered today..going to the baptism of Finley yesterday, and rembered her laughing so much...we all enjoyed that ...what a pleasure to hear a baby laugh like that...we were lucky as most of the people had left the party, but we were there when a little five year old girl was amusing Finley and made her chuckle, laugh and then huge belly laughs that had us all in stitches. he said, "he is so cute.. then added she is really beautiful...so she and he are mixed in his mind but it's not important he does remember the important things....and hopefully he will not feel too lost ...as long as we stay in the moment.
Actually there were so many moments of mystery and wonder...when were we together, when did we have Leslie, can't be 59 years ago, impossible i was away etc. etc. But, we have five adult children how and when were they born....but this is just this morning before we left...and goes on for a good part of the day, so we are both having a kind of hard time to live in the moment. but we will, and this is the moment to say g'nite...
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