As I have mentioned many times now, it is the simple things that Mac gets so much enjoyment from, and certainly the walk today with the wind blowing clouds and bits of rain all over...we kind of wondered how it would go; but we persevered and we were so happy we did as out came the SUN. I always say when this happens, o.k. Mac there it is - the sun says,'"oh o.k. Gordon McConnell is here so I better get out and do my thing". This always makes him laugh and kind of look at me like, o.k. stop that I'm not a baby, BUT, he loves it and I almost believe what I say, as it happens so often.
I can't say it enough that his appreciation of all the beauty we see on our walks every day makes my own life such a pleasure...I can forget about the night before where we had to change his clothes because he had a problem going to the bathroom, or at least I can live with it..I can live with his not knowing just who I am in the morning, like this morning..."what is your name, do you work here?" Well yes i do work here, my name is Janet - remember you married me." Wow says Mac, just when did I do that and why.. Well, I answered think because you must have liked me or something' what do you think and with this I hug him - he then reverts to his usual funny self, "hmmm, I guess I must have liked you, let me think, gee I still do"
I often wonder what goes on in his mind and how long does his unsureness last...does he kind of cover up or is he just joking, but no, he really does ask me in a serious way...and it always takes me aback...His memory is so short at times and then at other times he can remember things from yesterday...always such a shock when this happens. One thing he has never asked "who is Finley?" that little greatgrandchild is his real love and he never asks that question. If I say "we will see Finley tonight " which I said today, as we were going to have dinner with her, her mom and grandmom, no question...he always grins with delight and says, 'he is so cute', and i always correct him and say SHE is so cute...but nevertheless, he knows who she is...which is so wonderful...so another day has gone, and we'll enjoy the weekend and appreciate our many blessings especially the sun. g'nite
Jan ..you are the face of love for Mac and for all of us who are following you on this challenging path. I wanted to say 'walking with you' but the truth is we are not walking with you ...it is you who walks this path. But know that the love of friends and family radiates around you like the sun that you and Mac so love ...
ReplyDeleteand you inspire us to live, especially when it is not so easy.. as Christ, and Buddha would have us live... unconditionally. Each day, to do small things with great love, as Mother Theresa said...that is what you do.
With thanks for you on Thanksgiving Day. ♥